Certainly Uncertain

"The remarkable thing is that it is the crowded life that is most easily remembered. A life full of turns, achievements, disappointments, surprises, and crises is a life full of landmarks. The empty life has even its few details blurred, and cannot be remembered with certainty." ---Eric Hoffer

Life’s journey and building a life by design has many twists and turns. I know where I am headed and what must be done to get there. In addition, I was about to seriously stomp on the accelerator and travel down the road full speed ahead. Then life does something that makes you slam on the brakes and come to a complete stop, if just for a moment. That moment happened for me this past week. Building my life by design from the ground up, leaving the negative behind and replacing it with positive and amazing is challenging at times. In addition, sometimes people in your life, the amazing, positive people you desire to have as part of your designed life; do things that make you see a clear picture that perhaps they do not want to be part of your designed life. I have concluded that not everyone wants to be part of my designed life and that is great. I admire their positive energy; I will include them in my life at whatever level they will tolerate.

Last week I had everything mapped out and then I had a semi unpleasant experience in which I came to the realization that the path I was headed down, did not necessarily want me to come speeding down their street. Then as if by fate and still speeding in that truck of life down the road. Something happened that made me slam on the brakes. I experience an encounter of the most unexpected type. I reasoned my truck is full and I have my plan mapped out. However, I believe that the Lord does have a plan for each of us and although he wants us to discover and work for it; every now and then he hits you in the head to stop you and make you look around. Well, look I have and I like what I see, but it is complicated beyond anything I have encountered. Stopped, standing in the middle of the street and looking with amazement; I wonder aloud the possibilities. Why would I feel this, why would I have everything mapped out so thoroughly only to have this cross my path. Is it possible that I have no idea what I want or desire in my designed life. Then again I wonder, perhaps this is the Lord knocking me back to that fork in the road, giving me the chance to take the correct road. Once again, I realize that without the Lord’s guidance it is impossible for me to build the proper, quality-laden life of design. However, I have decided to pull the truck over out of harms way. I will look, explore and pray about why my intended path is being challenged. Why has a wonderful feeling and experience caused me to slam on the brakes. Building a life by design requires thought and at times slowing down. Making sure, you do not leave behind that which truly will empower you and make you the best person you can be and accomplish all that is possible.

I will continue with my weight loss journey and aim to hit my end goal in late January or early February. Phase 2 will be slowed and as I work on it, I will continue to explore the reason I slammed on the brakes. It feels right, special, amazing and worth exploring. A life by design, instead of default is definitely worth stopping to smell the flowers and examine the beautiful garden. After all, if it is not exactly what I thought it would be, I can always hop back in the truck and slam on the accelerator. However, take time to smell the flowers and visually absorb the garden. Do not be in such a rush that you miss the most amazing things that will enhance your life and the life of those around you.

"If we begin with certainties, we shall end in doubts; but if we begin with doubts, and are patient in them, we shall end in certainties." ---Francis Bacon

"It is the dull man who is always sure, and the sure man who is always dull." ---H. L. Mencken

"The one unchangeable certainty is that nothing is unchangeable or certain." ---John Fitzgerald Kennedy