Thursday, October 28, 2010

How the Heck do I get to my Heaven on Earth?

“Never let go of hope. One day you will see that it all has finally come together. What you have always wished for has finally come to be. You will look back and laugh at what has passed and you will ask yourself... 'How did I get through all of that?” ---Author Unknown

I know exactly what I want and what will make my life the Heaven I always wanted. I was at the local mall twice this past weekend and nowhere was it sitting on a shelf for purchase. I find it a bit surreal that I am actually shopping in a regular mall again. I find this odd for many reasons. First, I only went to malls in post High School days and early College days to check out the young women. Now, these young women and the young men checking them out seem stupid. Good heavens, was I like that as an 18-22 year-old? I was getting my handsome son his Birthday gift when a young man said to a cute young woman he was following, “Like, the color of your bra strap is really hot.” Yes, her bra strap was showing as so many young women do today. It was reddish, maroon color and if that is your color, perhaps it was hot. Second, I really do not like shopping alone unless it is Home Depot, Car Dealerships or Electronics stores. Those three are my favorites and my weaknesses. I really do not want someone with me that is going to rain on my parade with a big, no-no-no, put it back, you cannot have it. The largest reason I cannot believe I am shopping in the mall again. I have not been able to purchase clothes from a regular department store for nearly twenty years. It is great fun to try things on and realize I fit into clothes right off the regular rack. My goodness how sad it is how far the mighty have fallen. Did I, a dude, just say I love to try things on? Unfortunately, I confess to this ugly new habit. I am so stinking tickled I can wear clothes from a regular men’s section in a department store, that I want to try everything on just so I can laugh in the dressing room. Just a week ago at Macy’s an employee heard me giggling behind the door and asked if everything was okay? Can we say uncomfortable, especially when I walked out alone.

Now, I know what I want and I want it quickly. However, how do we get what we want with no roadmap or without continued struggles? I have found that when you focus in on what you want that life then will open the gates and obstacles come at you at light speed. My heaven is sitting in front of me and it will take great efforts, a little self-created luck, and cooperation from a few amazing people, love and passion. Not to mention a gargantuan belief in myself, Ironman Skin, persistence, unyielding integrity and honesty, Mars to sustain life, and Heck to freeze over. However, it is possible.

I know the people, I know the career, I know the place, I know the desired outcome. Now, how do I bring it all home and win the day? This is a daily educational event as I learn just how to navigate my way to the chosen life, the life of living by design. Some mornings I wake wondering if I am worthy or adequate. Then I remember that God wants us to live a life by design. In doing so, you become the person that he wants you to be. Living by design creates passion, love, generosity, kindness, compassion, and everlasting happiness. The path to living by design is blocked by many things. We must fight or push our way through these obstacles. The past two decades for me, I felt like I was chained to a torture wall in the hottest room in hell. Losing the weight and the negative influences in my life has been liberating. Now, how the hell do I get to my heaven here on Earth? I build it, one day at a time, one perfect, precious person at a time.

"To everyone is given the key to heaven; the same key opens the gates of hell." ---Ancient Proverb

"The aim of life is some way of living, as flexible and gentle as human nature; so that ambition may stoop to kindness, and philosophy to condor and humor. Neither prosperity nor empire nor heaven can be worth winning at the price of a virulent temper, bloody hands, an anguished spirit, and a vain hatred of the rest of the world." ---George Santayana

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